08-04-2012 08:33 PM
Earlier this year I went through some events that, partnered with Bi-Polar and ADHD, led me into a really bad depression. I was down and out for a good four months. So I started getting into video games a lot more then I already was. I started checking out games a few times a month. But little games every did much for me. It wasn't until I came across Alice: Madness Returns (Note: this is not the game which "is my favorite that no one knows about") that I started getting inspired.
I'm a writer, and inspiration can be very hard to find. I've gone as far as traveling by train to live with people I have not met, just so I could find something that opened my mind in the needed direction. And Madness Returns sparked my desire to finally go through with a novel (usually I stick to Poetry and Short stories). But after I finished I just couldn't find any more games that interested me in the right way. Sure they were fun, but did little to inspire my writing.
So one day I was in Fresno CA--a town next to mine--to go on a date. Sadly she couldn't make it, but I was already there. So I went to best buy to check out a game so that I felt a little less crappy. I wasn't able to find anything though but there was still a little day light left. On my way home I stopped by Game Stop a good twenty minutes before closing time.
Initially I picked up Dead Rising 2, but I was still searching for something to help inspire me. I came across Folklore (this Is The game). I never heard of it before, due to it being out well before I even had a PS3, so I didn't have too much hope. However, the box art was somewhat interesting.
The moment I started the game I was surprised. Even though one of the lead characters was incredibly corny. The game mixed a strange mix-world environment, some older game mechanics (such as text based communication, like what you would see in old RPG games), mystery and comic book cutscenes complete with text in poetic form.
A short while after playing Folklore I started feeling like I was reading a book, rather then playing a video game. It was a wonderful experience to feel like I was reading some visual form of poetry and prose. And while I never mirror themes in my writing from that I find through other mediums, I stayed up for hours a night drinking coffee, playing the game and pausing only to work on my novel.
Writing doesn't get the credit it deserves. To write well you have to wait, you can never force good writing. You can only compose a good piece when the thoughts enter your head without telling them to. And in most cases there has to be a means to that end. Very few outlets in life can do this well. When I did travel to get ideas for my work, I only wrote one chapter during the two weeks I was away.
Likewise video games don't get the credit they deserve. There are so many different arts that go into a well put together game. Ranging from sketch art to of course writing. Very few games did for me what Madness Returns and Folklore did. The novel is still in work, but it would have stopped dead end months ago if not for the seemingly awful events (after all, who likes being stood up, spending a good hour in a store to find nothing good and having to drive back from another town just to take a gamble shortly before the option was gone, all in the same day?).
Since then I've found solid ground in the novel (a form of prose I never wanted to test my patience with), grown my PS3 collection by a good twenty games and found ways to work around my Bi-Polar, ADHD and depression. I don't like taking drugs because I'm not "the way I should be" and finding something that works is very hard. The romance between my writing and my gaming keeps me calm, inspired excited and all this without having to be doped up on prescription pills.
It's a really big deal to me to feel okay. These are problems that started getting real bad I was thirteen and I'm twenty-three now. Both writing and gaming are absolutely needed in my life and Folklore played a huge role in the correlation. Because of that it will always be one of my favorite games. And it really does deserve more attention.
08-04-2012 11:59 PM
08-05-2012 01:36 AM - edited 08-05-2012 02:12 AM
Here's my fav game that no one gave attention to in the old days but it still brings excitement when I play it. (KOUDELKA)
When I was nine, I saw my cousin playing video games with some weird machine. At first I thought it was a Super Nintendo but then I saw closely that he was changing CDs. He told me, "what? I'm Playing Playstation". So I jumped and picked up a controller and we began playing. A couple years later, after my cousin didn't want to let me play anymore. I begged my parents to buy me a Playstation even though it was pricey; I gave them the longest convincing speech ever. In the end my speech worked and I was so excited with my Sony Playstation that I went on a game hunt. I am an RPG fan so I wanted a new game. Something that is long, exciting and that I was gonna remember all my life. One day when I was at a game store hunting for games, I saw this weird game called Koudelka. All of a sudden all this thoughts rushed through my brain and I knew I had to have it. The name seemed odd and when the geek started talking about it I knew this was the game. When I picked up the game I noticed it was 4 discs!!! I immediately bought it and went home on a Koudelka marathon. It took me 60 hrs to complete it but after passing it I wanted to play it again. I realized that there was this strong strong boss that cannot be defeated unless you have a certain sword and skill. So I added 30hrs of leveling up.This game was the best RPG ever made!!! To this day I still introduce this game to friends that don't know about it and 9 out of ten people end up thanking me for showing them an awesome game.What made this game great was that it was scary and exciting combined with the best cut scenes ever!! and of course the gameplay which made the characters really important since you can choose what roles you want them to play. I couldn't stop playing and of course my cousin wanted to borrow it. He then became addicted to Koudelka. I really wish this game can be released as a PSOne Original so everyone can experience what I went through. I have a nephew that he is really interested in it and I made this game to be his first too. Also I have another nephew on the way....
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