I was in a phase where I gave up hope about all life and its workings when I came to believe in Nihilism.
It made me think about how, if there was no purpose at all, everything done on Earth, both good and evil, would mean nothing.
A man raping dozens of women. A person killing children after molesting them. These peoples' actions would be worth the same as any good samaritan's since there would be no purpose in life. Everything we do would eventually die off. The universe, like a balloon, would stop expanding and implode on itself. This is what science believes today. The universe will suffer an ultimate heat death. Everything done on Earth, regardless of its moral significance in our minds, would be erased from history along with history itself.
This idea bothered me a lot. It made me feel worthless especially after hearing a speech by Richard Dawkins saying that we really just specks on a planet, which is a speck in a galaxy, which is a speck in the universe, and that our only purpose dictated by evolution is to make babies and survive...until the day the earth comes to an end...
EDIT: I got better.
Welcoming Committee- "The business of gaming is business"
Nothing has changed, i'm still a lazy **bleep** who does nothing but play, or used to...
Anyway, confessions... i do have some but i'll select the best... i was once strangled by my dad when i was a little girl and i am not sure if i like women or man.
Yesterday i dreamed about porn and the day before i dreamed about going back to school. Heh...
I came back to my old school and some "friends" of mine were there, also the guy that bullied me, nice dream, eh?
We were sitting at a table and a blonde started talking about Lilian (old friend of mine who commited suicide in 2012), she, the girl talking, was Lilian.
So basically she was talking about her, not knowing she died, or i don't know, it was a dream, it's meant to not make sence.
Anyway, i was going to class after we all talked an the dude who bullied me followed me, i have spider senses so i knew he was following me. I turned around and he taunted me. Ha. Ha.
I could go on on how the dream ended but i'll stop here...